was so many things. I had such a good time overall, and everyone was so wonderful. The worst part of the whole night was Timothy “jokingly” saying to Jess and Trac, “oh it’s Diana’s first rave? Guess I should take advantage of her” Like WTF?! I knew this guy was kinda a creep every time I saw him at Sutra and always watched me and Jess dance and would just come up behind us and try to dance with us, even when we stated that we didn’t want to dance with him. But then he started calling us his “Sutra fam” so Jess was like, oh he’s family zoning himself, maybe he’s just super friendly and he is always pretty messed up on something when we see him. But I just did NOT feel comfortable around this guy. At NRG, he kept trying to hug me with his hands way too low for a friendly hug, kept trying to hold my hand and then grind up on me. I kept telling him to back off and running away.
THANK GOD Trac told Kevin to dance with me and take care of me. Even when Kevin was dancing with me, Timothy would come up and ask if he can cut in or whatever. It’s like wtf? Seriously? Get the hint. Not only is he way creepy for that, but that’s SO not PLUR.
I’m seriously so grateful of Kevin. Every time we’re at Sutra, he’ll tell guys to back off if Jess or I turned them down but they’re still being persistent dicks/ aggressive. And he’s never just come up behind either of us to dance on us. In fact, before NRG the only time I’d danced with him was being Jess and I decided to sandwich him haha. And sweet baby Jesus, I was sloppy AF at NRG and he and Jon were taking care of me all night. I’m so so appreciative of them. I think I would’ve been on the floor if it weren’t for Kevin holding me up and helping me remember to drink water.
Besides the Timothy thing, the whole night was so PLUR. Everyone I met was SO NICE. Right when we walked into NOS, this girl smiled at me and Jess and started talking to us. Jess told her it was my first rave and she gave me the prettiest cuff kandi :’) So nice. I’m pretty excited for LED USA but damn, I have not been able to sleep. Overall a pretty good experience. Definitely had fun.
Wow sometimes my dad is so full of it. He’s walking around the house yelling at me about losing his 2012 tax return papers while I’m sick in bed, and I calmly tell him that I’ve never touched the physical copy because I was at school last year and Yvette had to scan them to me and Tin. I couldn’t have been the one to lose it. He’s all like “Yeahh that’s what all of you say, so who lost it then? It has feet and just run away? One of you had to lose it. So irresponsible. Taxes are so important, they have all our information.” Blah blah blah. You think I don’t know? I know exactly where MY 2012 taxes are, because I’m NOT irresponsible and keep my own damn papers where I know they’ll be. Am I the one that lost the tax papers? No? So who here is more responsible, Dad?
So then my dad calls Yvette to ask her where she put it, and she just says I didn’t lose them, and he immediately is like “Okay, so how’s school? Are you doing well?” and what not in this loving, caring voice. And I’m sitting here like WTF? I’m so sick of him treating me like some kind of idiot kid, while I’m the one fucking working full time and has been working throughout all of college to pay for my own tuition and shit.
So this weird thought came to me whilst waiting for World of Color last night…
Say you meet the love of your life, marry him/her, and then you die prematurely.
Do you grant your spouse/ SO permission to find another?
Normally I would have said YES in a heartbeat because if I truly love, in my case, my husband, I would want him to be happy, right?
BUT… as I believe in the afterlife… what happens when we all die.. as in, my husband and his new wife. Is he mine again? Do I have to share? Because no matter how much I love this man, I am not down to fucking share.
I don’t want to say no be miserable and lonely for the rest of your life though. That’s pretty damn selfish. Gahhhhh
I am totally still in that book hangover for Allegiant, but it’s not a good one. I’m so upset, seriously. So many things that just really bother the shit out of me! It shouldn’t have ended like that and it’s leaving me feeling so hollow. So empty. I spent days doing nothing but reading, knowing it wouldn’t end how I wanted due to everyone’s warnings, but I hoped. Still I hoped, and now I just can’t stop thinking about what a shitty ending that was. I’ve never been so frustrated with a fictional book! I was pissed that Primm died in Hunger Games, but this book, I just… ugh.